Posts Tagged ‘sick’

Contradiction (slice you open)

Sunday, July 18th, 2010

 

Numbness must be bliss

So why don’t you lie on this cold table and let me open this chest

With a magnified right eye

I make an incision with my laser beam light

Before I investigate…  let me look into your eyes

Oh are you mystified?

Wondering why I can feel your insides?

Let me assure you…   you don’t need this shit anyway

Your heart is selfish

Beating for no one on any day

With my hand around you throat you look so scared…

“Awe…  you use to like this..  what happened?  Hello?  Are you in there?”

Are those tears rolling down your cheeks and dripping on my steel table?

No no… it’s not a problem..  it’s just that you’re feeling emotion and I didn’t know that you were able

I reach inside you chest and squeeze one of your lungs… 

Your mouth under my nose…

My eyes closed…

I remember your soft pants of passion

Your lips are swollen by instinct and they feel as they always have…

I run my tongue along the redness

“Do you remember the times we had…?”

You can’t answer for shock

You can’t even apologize..

..ha.. like I would even give a fuck

You try and say something…

“Sorry I don’t speak your language”

“…maybe God will save us…”

I squat at the end of the table and take the view of your toes

I rise up with a surgical mask and hidden smile on my face

I open your chest and remove a few things

I remove your heart because you won’t be needing it…

Now you are no longer a walking contradiction

No longer my affliction

Let me sew you up..  

I promise that I will sew you straight

Oh wait.. did you want staples?

Staples for your chest

Rusty wire for your lips

… nothing surgical about that

I’m just enjoying this

sick soul of circumstance

Friday, May 21st, 2010

sickness… quiet times of reflection… analyzation… torment… willingness to beat my soul down because it’s what’s comfortable and familiar.

labels… diagnosis…  the things that are real to them…

watchful eyes and subtle glimpses my way keep a false reality in check

where is she now

is the past reliving its painful memories

all too familiar circumstance

dail tones…  whispers.. creeking floors

the wind blows and crickets chirp

the fog rolls and frogs sound…

the leaves shake and the creek breathes

where is she now

she whispers my name in habit

not in caring

comfort is what she seeks

not a firm future of feeling from another

the cars pass and the headlights shine in through a clean window

a dog-walker walks … is walked

a plane passes over

a neighbors telephone

where is she now

will i believe her

will it be the end of not believing

or just another tale of temporary deceiving