fuck you, you stupid fucking, ungreatful piece of shit. i’ve never met anyone so fucking undeserving of anything remotely beautiful in my life. yeah? ask him how my dick tastes! take your insecure, never knowing where you’re going, dude smelling armpit ass to the next one in line. Two cuts from a mullet and one dog from airborn mange. I gave you EVERY GOD FORSAKEN BIT of my heart, love, being… and all because you simply told me that you’d never hurt me.. that I could trust you to no end. Now I wish that I wrapped you up tight in your blanket laying next to me, smothered your face and… and threw you in the trunk.. still living I’d take you to a bridge on a frozen night. Naked, I’d dip you in water and back out again, cover you with leaches…  take you back home to the basement, chain you to the floor and shave your head with rocks and use salt for aftershave. Starve your dogs for 10 days and hide raw meat in your holes and under your body and let them feast upon what I held so dear…. NO MORE YOU.
My dear, do not put so much of your energy towards something that you get nothing out of. Energy is to be cherished and used wisely, because you are only given a small amount per day. Use it for something that will benefit and comfort your soul. If you continue to hold onto such rage, animosity, negativity, you will only hurt yourself in the end. And for what? To continue to feed and grow an inner hurt for her? You are better than that and deserve so much more in your life. Do not waste another precious minute of your life dwelling on someone who has nothing to give. Share with yourself an inner peace that can only be obtained from the release of all negative feelings toward her. Just let go. Sometimes things that we find so dear to our hearts, can suck them dry and leave them empty.
You’re right… my mind gets the best of me and so I have to put things down on paper to release them. Having no closure has been my biggest enemy. I am sure though that closure would only feed the beast that is pain and animosity.