American Psychopath

fuck you, you stupid fucking, ungreatful piece of shit.  i’ve never met anyone so fucking undeserving of anything remotely beautiful in my life.  yeah?  ask him how my dick tastes!  take your insecure, never knowing where you’re going, dude smelling armpit ass to the next one in line.  Two cuts from a mullet and one dog from airborn mange.  I gave you EVERY GOD FORSAKEN BIT of my heart, love, being…  and all because you simply told me that you’d never hurt me.. that I could trust you to no end.  Now I wish that I wrapped you up tight in your blanket laying next to me, smothered your face and… and threw you in the trunk..  still living I’d take you to a bridge on a frozen night.  Naked, I’d dip you in water and back out again, cover you with leaches…   take you back home to the basement, chain you to the floor and shave your head with rocks and use salt for aftershave.  Starve your dogs for 10 days and hide raw meat in your holes and under your body and let them feast upon what I held so dear….  NO MORE YOU.

I’ve been having visions.  In my life I’ve experienced many things, but have never had what I consider to be visions.. until today.  Hills made of ash or white wire.  The visions are very quick.. they come and go with a blink of the eye.  There is meaning to be found…   Meaning that I am insane or meaning that I am being shown…  I already know the answer to both in other facets of my life, so it’s difficult for me to determine what it is that I should do.